uber far from zenith

Maybe I was born to live a lonely life. Well.. Maybe not. But most of the time I feel so out of line, so unloved and so far from what I yearn for.

I'm the type of person who comes into a room and gives off a vibe that I don't care much about what's going on around me or that I don't care about what you do or if you like me or not.. But the truth is.. I do. I care a lot for everyone around me. I care about their activities, their attitude towards me and towards other people. It's just that I'm too scared to get into the business.

We are social animals. Some are happy even with only one friend, some need more than one and some need more than the number of friends we expect them to have. I'd be happy even with only one friend. The thing is.. If ever I 'd have only one friend, I might require him or her to spend most of his or her time with me. I secretly tend to need a lot of attention.

More often than not, the people I cherish don't value me the same way. I can't blame them though.. They have their own lives, right? ..and so I end up lonelier by the minute. And I try to quench my thirst with other stuff like the internet, drinks and food which don't quite fit into the keyhole. Gets?

Moreover, exams are coming up and I have to pull my grades up desperately. Help me.

And if you are not aware.. My phone's busted. Text me something with your name in it for identification purposes. I have no plans of replying if I won't be able to recognize you from your text messages. Oh crap. Nobody texts me anyway.

And if you think I'm kidding about my depression.. I'm not.